to your face

    Hey ||||||||

     I'm sorry I lied to your face. I had a lot going on and honestly I just didn't really care about being there. I couldn't really buy into it. Everything was letting me down. I knew I was wasting time. Not only had I given up, I had lost my mind. 

    It didn't start abruptly, but the realization was sudden. I didn't understand until I realized. The walls were crawling with bugs. I could see how much people didn't care. It hurt my heart. It was my own blood. Everything just lost its purpose. Not caring was my norm. I saw the reflection of my heart. 

    They all said I was just like him. Not the way I looked but what I was. The things I would tell myself are my passion. I didn't know who I really was. He was so much more removed. I didn't do the same thing, but it sure was close.

    I see myself in the way that they would never understand. Things beyond comprehension. Clarity is my vision now. I reflected on myself. What a wonderful time to do so. I don't feel home here. I need to start on my own adventure. Not the adventure that others expected of me.

-kylie

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